close to the beginning

dear harold,
i need to say something.
you know i like you, and i definitely do.
and you say that im sending you mixed signals about that, but the thing is, im just a little bit confused about this situation.
the other night, i think it was too much too soon.  i said i wasnt going to have sex with you... and all that stuff, it felt a lot like sex. and i know it wasn't, but im just confused.
this seems very casual. and i thinks thats what you want... but i always thought that i would do this when i was in a serious relationship.  and i think i would like that with you.   but i dont know if you feel the same way.......
and im not acusing you of anything, nor am i pressuring to make any decision, and i definitely did not feel pressured to do anything.
and even if we were in a relationship, i cant promise that i would have sex with you any time soon.  which i guess isnt really fair, but im just not ready.
and im wondering if when we go home you will get back together with that girl.  and i feel like i cant really ask you not to.....
but all i can think about is how much i would like all my friends back home to meet you, because you're so cute and smart and funny.
i think thats it.

-G